a new plan

seriously, i don't know what my problem is. i was doing great in january & february, and i'm still trying to get over my big march slump. i've lost interest in exercise. so, i have a new plan. every day i will get up and exercise. 30 minutes of cardio. that's it. then i'll go to work, do my thang, come home for dinner. then 2 (or 3) nights a week i will hit the gym for strength training - ususally happens on a monday/wednesday/friday. in support of my "new plan", i am buying an ipod shuffle. or nano. i don't know yet. i really like the radio feature on the nano, and who doesn't love the touchscreen? but i'm not sure if it's worth $100 extra. on the other hand...i only have 2 more sessions with ryoko and then i'm left to my own devices. i might need the "fun" features of the nano just to keep me interested in exercise. bottom line, i just need some fun and groovy music to keep me going. i find that starting at myself in the mirror while i do my "sumo squat" and bicep curl/lunges whilst counting to 20 repeatedly is NOT working for me. i have also re-started my food/exercise tracking on myfitnesspal. once i fell off that wagon i really didn't care what i was eating. so now to see an estimate of my caloric intake will be a kick in the pants to stop (some of) the snacking. at least zumba sunday continues to be a success! my mom and i might even try to squeeze in a friday night zumba class...but scheduling around HER social life plays a factor in this ;)

fail!

ok, so from my 8 pound, 10 inch "high", i've sunk to my low. i definitely have a monthly cycle...2 weeks are great, then along comes pms and the desire to eat everything in sight. i haven't dared to jump on the scale for fear of how much weight a person can gain in 1 week. i feel like in the past week i've derailed everything i've worked so hard for. i'm meeting ryoko on wednesday morning so i'll have to get back on track. it's brutal...i feel guilty, i feel fat, yet today i ate more chips and drank more pop.

on the other hand, i haven't re-gained the 10 inches...my "old" black pants still fit me, and are actually fitting even worse...with new saggy areas from my weight loss :P that in itself is also depressing because it means i`m at an awkward size...not old size, but not worthy of a new wardrobe yet in case i do lose more weight.

i'm gonna have to research the type of eater i am. i'm definitely an emotional eater, but i'm also an impulse eater. i am the worse. ugh. i'm gonna curl up and go to bed. even worse...tonight i'm going to bed on a full stomach.

at least i`m going to zumba in the morning...there`s a light at the end of this bleak tunnel!